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April 30th, 2009

02:24 am - pppfftttt.... wow! last post - August 28, 2008. 2008!!! it even took me 15minutes to log in - i forgot my login access :s shame! shame! shame on me! i won't be surprise if it will take me forever to finish this post checked out some expensive bags last weekend. like i can afford it *roll-eyes*. well, sometimes it's good to look-see. check what's in the market now...because i swear i couldn't remember the last time i walked pass those stores. i remember telling a friend once that i couldn't even remember the last time i bought a sleeper. well i remember now; i had to get a new pair because my old slippers bailed on me. i should be sleeping by now. i think i am over worked or for whatever other reasons, i wouldn't want to know. oh! and i have an 830am meeting later. sweet! i wish i could be someday like this... how's that for a thought at 3am?   see mOwE Current Mood: stoned Current Music: CSS - Off the Hook

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August 28th, 2008

11:34 pm - i am bored... i want to be able to read, write and draw again. signs that i am getting bored. signs that i need my outlets back to keep me from thinking or squeezing my brains out for i don't know what. i am not pretty sure if these are signs of my depression. i hope not. i remember the last time i felt this way. i seriously went out to look for a sketch pad and some stuff to start drawing again. i fetish feet. so then i started drawing my feet...my friends' feet...other people's feet...our visitors' feet...until i got too obsessed, i even drew a kid's feet playing in the street. well, i couldn't remember how i did it. i swear, if i could just make him stop for a minute or two, it wouldn't be so difficult for me to finish it. nevertheless, it was a feet-looking-thing. until i got tired because i felt i've no more feet to draw..so then i stopped. i got sick and tired of sketching my feet as well. silly me. see, i am bad in imaginations. one time, i've got no 'sample feet' to draw and since i was sick and tired of my feet it makes me want to vomit, i tried to imagine one. it turned out looking like a toad and i had a terrible headache after that. what are the odds? i guess, there's always time to get and be bored, at least to me. i am bored when i've got no one to talk to. and when i have one, i don't speak. dang! when i do, i tend to say a lot it gets too much to absorb for the other person. tsk! anyway, my last book read?... humurous , silly and very-well written...yeah and that was like two months ago O_O and i didn't know eleanor rigby is a beatles' song. ______________ MoWe<< Current Mood: bored

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June 8th, 2008

12:11 am - movies i watched.... cashback... ahh...a "real state of the art" movie. the only narration movie i liked...actually, i fell in love with it. i didn't get bored at all...you'd really sit on it and wait until it's finished [photo click] directed and written by sean ellis, a real artist, i must say. *** what happens in vegas... another movie that took my laughs away. i was laughing to death the entire time. how can i ever resist cameron diaz and her perky-girly-like acting. vegas is fun! [photo click] *** made of honor... sweet and cute...i liked it. the modern version of 'my best friend's wedding'. [photo click] *** sex and the city... ...and of course, watching movie is nothing without seeing sex and the city. i thought i wouldn't like it as the previews are not that catchy. i find the story line not good. nevertheless, an almost 2-hour movie made me smile. i felt like watching it over again. i like the way they continue the series with a movie and putting an end on it at the same time although i wanted more of it. what more can they think of, anyway, after the four ladies took their adventures in life for years and ending it with still being in love with each other and knew what really love is by finding their own love of their lives? and oh! i lurve the clothes...theh bags...and the shoes... [photo click] *** indiana jones and the kingdom of crystal skull.... i didn't get to finish the movie...hehehe...for some reasons. anyway, it was free though. thanks to my company :D well...the funny henry jones is still funny..old and still good-looking and still afraid of snakes...surprisingly i can still remember bits and pieces of of the others. it was a long wait though. fans, includes me, were not expecting mr lucas would come up with another adventure. h should already be inspired after tomb raider and national treasure. what took him so long? i would like to get a chance to watch it again...this time, i would have to finish it. [photo click] *** can't wait to see narnia, kung fu panda...and waiting for the mummy.. all these and others more. i know this post is just so lame...i've not been putting anything on this for ages. mmmm, i would have to pay more attention on this thought :p check mOwE << Current Location: outside Current Mood: high

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February 5th, 2008

04:44 am - pro sanity i do not know...for some reasons none of 'em songs can sooth me nowadays. well, i know a lot, i can even do the name-that-tune-in-one-note-game. but not now...not even jim chapelle or coheed & cambria sooth me. i am doomed...i am panicking...have i lost me? O_O i don't even have at least one song i used to listen nowadays...not even one! not even the feeling of missing one song...not even the feeling of wanting to hear a song. something is wrong! pfffftttt.... **** well, i am sorry but i seriously have to quote this... There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend; There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend; And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb. There's a fine, fine line between love And a waste of time. There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie; And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye." I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime, But there's a fine, fine line between love And a waste of your time. And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore. I don't think that you even know what you're looking for. For my own sanity, I've got to close the door And walk away... Oh... There's a fine, fine line between together and not And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got. You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime... There's a fine, fine line between love And a waste of time. ~ avenue Q so, if i am not sane, what do i call me then? if this is not sanity, what do i call it then? does this entry even made sense? Current Mood: drained Current Music: -

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December 1st, 2007

06:39 am - just a rant unlike most teens, i don't talk about cute boys and dating....and all crappy stuff like that. i can't even remember the first time i ever shared a conversation with a friend about colors of lipsticks...or what color i like on my lips. aside from the fact that i don't put make up on (it irritates my face and make my lips a bit swollen), last night, i kinda felt a bit different. i attended the company's dinner and dance. mind you, first time ever have i attended and stayed up until the end of it. anyway, when roommate doing my face, i felt like a teen. weh! it's mushy, but true. i wonder what it's like then. well, i wouldn't know...and i don't wanna know. it may be a bit late to feel that, but i am fine by it :)  and yeah, i survived the night without any rashes on my skin...my lips are still normal, last time i checked. although my face was a bit itchy...it was not killing me that much. is there some cure for the itch? it makes me wonder: do single ladies (my age) would still talk about teen stuff like that? girls talk is always girls talk though... anyway, if last year was a waste not getting the first price because i left early (just so i won't pay a fine of $100), last night was not bad. i get to win a price also...just in time when mom and siblings get here on christmas *cross fingers* ... i get to be on the centre stage doing the lousy-acting-like-a-lead-guitarist. a game so to speak. thanks to friends and my ever drunken team manager who pointed at me and pushed the MC to get me participate in the game. i couldn't complain and resist. i just got back from a smoke outside. next thing i know, they were pointing at me already.  it was fun though. i am ranting, yeah. pictures here Current Location: hall Current Mood: silent Current Music: silent all these years - tori amos

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October 21st, 2007

08:32 am - battle...bottle...bothered... a book conceptualized by a japanese writer, koushun takami, i do not know for what purpose. it is disturbing. i do not know how many times i've stopped reading it for a while and continue when i had overcome my disturbance. violent, literally bloody but interesting. and this book became a movie. ******* i have nothing more to write...i am getting worried. ulk! Current Location: 381

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September 13th, 2007

07:16 am - write...wrote...written... i couldn't count how many times i've read this book... (image click) if only her words are literally palpable...then i could've literally melted. i've always loved how she described each character, each scenario in a very literary poetic way. there are twists of humor here and there, it's funny...heart pounding (at least to me)...heart dropping...i melted deep inside. if words were not expressed differently, which i couldn't explain how or well, one will find it mushy. but it's sweet, heart-felt. i didn't like the ending though...nevertheless, it's jeanette winterson, how can i not love her writings?! i loved it when L said '...you are a pool of clear water where the light plays...' >> it's something you don't expect someone to blurt out from the deepest recess core of one's heart. and yes, that could be felt... *sigh* *** now, i am panicking...i've no more books to read :( it's my only resort nowadays...not to think too much...not to imagine how life would be...not to trouble myself too much from anything...not to s-m-o-k-e!!! Current Location: saggy bed Current Music: cariusel - jim chappell

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September 3rd, 2007

09:55 pm - in prozac... current read: for how many times i read this book, i do not know. bought a new copy with iKa. i finished in 3 days...now i am re-reading O_O and i wish i could have this also... but it was banned a long time ago and until now, we couldn't find any copy...anybody? *** ahhh...radio blog - my new best friend... thanks to iKa!!! loving this song...he sounds like david gray...seriously, i like his genre. i like his voice...i like the way he sounds...i like him!!! Current Music: you give me something - james morrison

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August 28th, 2007

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August 17th, 2007

02:00 pm - barbie's cradle(s) The moon's gone down I know you're still awake This heart I've found I didn't intend to break Cause I've seen the world from down there And it wasn't a pretty sight Now the circle is turning Are you armed for the fight I wanna be a firewoman I'll water down your desire Cause I know this love is a killer I wanna put out your fire Apology is futility Now destiny is not a friend Did you come for danger You gave me love for pain Now you're much more than a stranger I wanna give you love But all I have is rain I'm gonna put it out ~firewoman Let the eyes speak Seven words of a dream Let the eyes hear You floating there in your beautiful space While i jump to reach you But i'm too little you fly higher My wings are tired I'm bound to the ground While you are floating Let it go i'll savor this like your drug What is joy if not for pain Who would we be and why is patience Way over there i can't see him clearly Come closer through the skin To the spirit While i jump to reach you But i'm too little fly higher My wings are tired I'm bound to the ground While you are floating ~ floating *********************** i literally put a halt reading haruki's books. another masterpiece, norweigan wood. i must admit i delayed reading it...i didn't want to finish the book just yet. i didn't want to know what's going to happen....and it had to happen, i had to finish the book though. after which, i wanted to stop. it feels surreal that the stories and characters get into me. nevertheless, his works are just masterpieces i'd read over and over. i won't mind. *********************** for the record, i do not like what i am feeling right now. i need a happy pill...                          Current Mood: sore Current Music: barbie's cradle

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June 20th, 2007

11:38 pm - the day when i've gone berserk one day in the train... ...i smelled something r-e-a-l-l-y bad...*ting*... ...i feel nausea over my head. too strong, the smell... ...my head felt soo heavy, i passed out. i felt like i was hung on my judgement day... ...i went back to my senses, i felt the adrenalin and became mad like a cave woman... ....the rest of the story is history. nobody would want to know what came about... :D on a side note: it occured to me [that day] that chicken rice is a better cure for anything and everything! Current Mood: stressed Current Music: king of silence - chibo matto

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June 18th, 2007

01:45 am after days of drooling to haruki murakami's other book collections, my holiday came and went, had a huge argument, blah-blah-blah...i had so much stress both at work, at home, and other stuff. so i am still up eventhough i know i shouldn't be...mmm...(taps fingers) random thougts: (1) commitment is a very vague word, being commited is another story (2) when you know what you want in life, you wonw't have worries and you will alwyas be ready of whatever consequences and struggle you may ever encounter *** my sister introduces me to this...and i fell in love with it. love at first sight? my second time feeling this :D she's just a sucker for watches! i was about to give her a lecture for buying another one, but i was shut off with my own senses after seeing what and how it looks like (shameful!). it would be nice to see it on my wrist :p ...and how about this for a new tattoo? *wink*   *** i was playing with my icon, out of all i did, i loved this the best! i don't know for what reason though.. . Current Location: m i s s i n g Current Mood: singing mode Current Music: back for good - take that

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May 25th, 2007

03:18 am - in my face... random thought: "...keeping secrets is only inviting trouble! So if you're hiding any truths from anyone you love, it's time to say what's really going on, with as much tact and loving care as possible, of course..." how twue? what say you, though, if the other person is just not open for even a small talk? ______________ i catched on line my loving auntie from US and we were talking about family and stuff...i knew it's going down on me. i always enjoy talking to her... her: so, do you have a NEW partner? me: yes, 4 years na... her: really, that's great, there di ba? me: yes...(nationality disclosed) her: oic...wag kang papaapi ha! me: hahaha...i still get tired, most of the time i'd let it go her: if you think it's not working, let go ***, you might be caught off guard me: uh-huh... her: and you are not living in together, that's good... me: not yet... me: we are ok...too many flaws though. but, ok. kind, supportive, sensible...most of the time not sensible, but intelligent. and thank goodness, no accent...BUT the most difficult person i've ever known. more difficult than my ***** :p and like i said, i tend to let it go... her: EH MASOKISTA KA PALA EH!!! me: (blank) she's the sweetest! she gives me a hit right smack on my face. ____________________ Current Location: unsprung bed Current Mood: mixed Current Music: makes me wonder - maroon 5

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May 22nd, 2007

02:53 am - ramblings of... before anything else, i need to tell this story... it took me awhile before i can totally log in to LJ. i couldn't remember changing my password...only to find out i was logging on using my office pc password O_O how stupid can i be? anyway, i can, somehow, breathe with some expenses i have in mind for this month. pheeew! thanks to the so-called increment that wasn't really an increment. why? it's a long story. for what it's worth....i can breathe. *** i am rambling. i can't sleep. and i can't help but be bothered. me not liking this.  with a little bit of frustration and desperation, my roommate and i went to this plsace where they advertised a huge electronics sale, hoping i could get a good deal for a plasma tv for my sister. it was a 'blah!' good that we went, good that we waited a bit for our pay to be in our accounts, we had a couple of beers, sweet lady-talk...and ended up calling our two other flatmates to join us. clean fun. made me divert my mind a bit to some good laughs...because i am totally naiinis. i thought i would want to feel again that floating feeling at work with a little bit of hang over...bad-bad-bad.... of course, i didn't. i was still in my senses *** gotta get some sleep though. i need a cigarette...but i don't have any :( oh! and another thing...why was i not there? i am  overly jealous!!! ______________ current read: (and i am finishing) Current Location: unsprung bed Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: criminal - fiona apple

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May 12th, 2007

01:35 am - indeafning.... so we set up this temporary internet connection, which is not bad...thanks to the staff plan! :p i figured i need to spend a lot more time infront of my laptop and do some upgrades and clear up some space. i was horrified (again) to see "ZERO MB SPACE LEFT" O_O i think this is the problem if you are using an aged laptop which you love so much you wouldn't want to change it or even upgrade the disk space just so you'd preserve the originality of it. like, duh! hence, the staying up late tonight...just in time for my laundry, which didn't make sense at all! what has been happening? well, mmmm...nothing much except that i am working...and working...and working. it's been tough, been fun, been competitive. some people are just too greedy over some things. i wonder if this is normal in the environment i am in right now. it doesn't stress me though. it just amazes me, most times, what people are capable of just to be on top and over-power others. what do they get by doing those? not that i am complaining...i am just simply amazed *shakes-head* so...i resorted into something to keep my sanity. and that's reading...and reading...and reading. at least i get to discover a lot of things, i get to be amazed by something else...sensible things, i get to do book reviews with iKa, yes? i like it, seriously. i get to talk about other stuff rather than work and people, i'd rather this than commit something sinful by talking behind other people's back. that's bad. what i need and want now is 'good karma' :) so there... we have been drooling over haruki murakami's work. so far, i've finished three of his books in 3 wks. amazing! i am in a stage where i don't want to read any other books but his. maybe i am biased (for now). nothing interests me but his works. like, each page has a surprise, each story has this weird, unique, and interesting character. i can forget about graphic novels for the time being *wink* (only for the time being :p) and mind you, i didn't skip any page of it. i read each line, word for word. once i get hold of his book, i can't put it down. i can even start ignoring iKa :p seriously!                                      this i finished in two days...                                             this in 2 weeks ( i have a very good reason for that :p) short storie (which normally bore me) but still... it would be nice to have his entire collection on my shelf :)  Current Location: nook Current Mood: awake Current Music: winners - k's choice

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